blah, relationships!

So I totally know that I don't have any readers but I am fine with that because if anyone knew who i was it would be REALLY bad. Especially with this post. First was this birthday party I went to this afternoon, really cool and all but I don't really know the people. They have a cute little boy who just turned 3 though and I like him. That wasn't really so bad but I find myself a little socially retarded and so.... i don't know. The bad started to come on when I used someone's phone to text my bff and she told me that she was all down and broke her car and all this blah. That was ok, i told her she was amazing and la de da de da. Then I was chatting with my cousin and she was all, "I just got my permit!" and I was like "cool" wait, aren't you like 23? Right, you have some issues because you were born so pre-mature. Ok, whatever, but it was a little awkward. Wait backtrack, before that I watched a video of one of my.... well actually she is my dance teacher, but I like to think she is my friend, and I posted a "<3 love you love the fashion staement" (she was wearing a towel on her head). But I guess I thought wrong because she messaged me that she was all sad and i wasn't supposed to see that video and she is totally embarrassed and that I am never to speak of it and she made multiple tear faces. What the heck!?! It isn't like I am her co-worker or some associate or whatever, I am her student, I have known her for 5 YEARS!!!!!!! Plus, she saved my life. Why does she block me out after all we have been through? I feel so rotten, like I just completely ruined our relationship, I will probably never post on FB again. OK, lie of the century but I will never post on HER stuff again, the backstabbing muckedy muck. I was all thinking this morning about telling her all she's done for me without even knowing it next time I see her but, on second thought, I will just keep all my deep feelings to myself. I always keep everything to myself, that's why I am so socially retarded! Someone, anyone, tell me I am not the only one who always seems to say the wrong thing at the wrong time!? And that I am not the only one who always blames myself for relationships gone wrong?!