Has there ever been something, and your not expecting it, but it just hits you. And then your standing there and crying and you almost don't know why. Or you wish you didn't know why. That happened to me today. With music of course, that's what always what hits me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJgPonBWOFY
That is my family. But I can not pity myself, it hurts the rest of my family just as much as it hurts me. So I can't complain, I can't yell or cry or even ask why. Because I am not the only one who hurts, so I have to hold my own, no one else can, or will, carry my burdens for me.
It is a fine balance of glass that I live, one that I can not break. Because if I let the balance shatter, I will hurt everyone I care about. So I would rather hold the balance of glass and allow all the shards to cut me than allow this to fall and these broken pieces to touch anyone else.
Besides, my situation isn't so bad. My parents split when I was very very young, I don't remember it being any other way. I have the most amazing step-father in the world and I love having my amazing little brother. So I shouldn't, can't, complain. I can hold this balance, I can live with the way things are. I have to because that's just the way it is.
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